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Envy and Disappointment.

To start out describing my journey while ttc and my disappointment causing me to question my beliefs. My husband and I are both 21, we've been married coming up to a year June 22nd. My husband and I first started talking about conception and starting out our own little family around January last year. My husband is a union lineman, dangerous job by far. He doesn't help the stress level as well as my dad, he's a lineman too. Other than worrying about my husband while he is at work, I have little to no stress. We are financially stable. I'm 5'3" a little overweight, I weigh 166, mostly just big thighs and rump. I maintain my diet, fruits and water. I cut back on carbs. I stay active. Come to find out today after an appointment with my doctor, I have a low producing thyroid. It was genetically passed down to me. My doctor prescribed me some meds to boost the production of my thyroid. I don't have missed periods, I'm down to where I could pinpoint my period 6 months from now. So, why haven't my husband and I been blessed with a bundle of joy? In the last 13 months, we've had no luck what so ever. I'm envious of mothers to be, I can't stomach to see someone pregnant. Yes I'm happy for them, but at the same time I feel deep dislike for them. I just want to know why, just why? Is there anyone experiencing disappointments like we have? I just need support. I hate hearing someone say just keep trying. Seriously, people who aren't trying to conceive do not understand the heartache in the process, my husband and I have exhausted ourselves sexually in the past trying. So we gave up on a schedule and just make love every two days or so. I need a friend.

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