The dark time
This is always the dark time of the month. BFNs, then AF…It’s the time of month that I am the most down about TTC. I feel every moment of the journey weighting me down.
Usually as ovulation approaches, I manage to shake off these feelings and start again. I imagine that in a week I’ll be raring to go. I hope so, anyway.
I’m doing my fourth and final round of Clomid. My ultrasound was fine, but they did comment again about my uterine lining being slightly thick. I have an appointment with my RE on the 14th to talk about my options if this cycle is successful, so I’ll ask him about that then as well.
I’m actually glad that I have a week or so before I ovulate. I’m terribly tired and stressed. My son had an endoscopy done yesterday and it involved him being off of his medication for acid reflux for a week prior to it. It made for some very fussy days and very interrupted nights. I hope I’ll be able to rest up and get into a good frame of mind so I’ll actually have a chance this month.
Baby dust to all!
This entry was posted on Tuesday, November 8th, 2011 at 12:08 pm and is filed under Hoping to be Blessed Twice.
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About the Author: MeAsAMommy
I'm a 29 year old mother from Indiana. I've been married since 2004 and in 2009, my husband and I had our son. We hope to be blessed with another child soon!
Hi Coral,
First of all, I’m sorry about your chemical–I had one in June so I know how badly it hurts. As for dealing with your husband’s reluctance to get tested, the best advice I can give you is to remind him that it is the first and easiest thing to rule out as a problem. He should think about it as giving blood or something, not to put so much emphasis on the “deed” part. A low sperm count is a problem that is fairly easy to treat. Let him know that it’s important to you that he do his part and remind him that you’ll have to go through much more invasive testing if it comes to that! I have had blood tests, ultrasounds, and an HSG (a procedure where dye is injected into the uterus and fallopian tubes), all in the name of trying to conceive. The whole thing can be very embarrassing, especially for a man, but I think that if he keeps in mind that this is important to both of you and if he thinks of it as his way to contribute to this journey, he’ll do it. Odds are the sperm analysis will be completely normal.
Hang in there! I know how hard it is to try month after month, and to worry that there is something wrong with you. I still worry about that, even though the doctors haven’t found any problems so far. It’s hard to believe that everything could be normal when we’ve been trying for so long. I do encourage you to start thinking about having the testing done. So many fertility issues are easily treated and even if they don’t find a problem, they can usually do something to help increase your chances of getting pregnant.
Thanks for commenting and I wish you the best of luck. I hope you get a BFP very soon! ~*Baby Dust*~
i know how to feel (kind of) i’m not going through all these tests yet but i have now been ttc for a year and each month that we are unsuccessful it breaks my heart more and more, especially when i feel all these ‘symptoms’ each month and it get my hopes up (i cant help it) and then af shows are ugly face and i just feel like sitting in a corner and crying, it gets really hard for me particularly when my hubby seems VERY reluctant to go to the docs to get some tests done, he doesnt like the thought of having to ‘do the deed’ into a cup lol, which i can understand but then if we want children what else are we supposed to do. have you got any advise that i could use to try and encourage my hubby to get tests done with me. although i’m more concerned about it being me as he accidentally got someone pregnant before (she miscarried) and got me pregnant once before too but unfortunately ended in a chem preg. good luck