I’m Ready

Posted on November 12th, 2011. Written by MeAsAMommy.

As I predicted, the dark time has passed and I’m ready to try again. A part of me is hoping desperately for it to happen this month, both because it’s been so long and because it’s going to be a lot more involved next cycle if we don’t succeed.

I see my RE on Monday. I’ve been trying to do some research of what hormone injections might entail, but so far I don’t have a very clear idea. He mentioned that it would mean additional monitoring. It seems like most people do hormone injections along with IUI or IVF. I’m not really prepared to do that yet. But I guess it’s getting to that point, where I will have to think about that a little bit. As much as I never expected to be TTCing for this long, I REALLY can’t imagine having to resort to IUI or IVF. My insurance doesn’t cover either procedure of course, so we’d have to save up. I have read that IUI isn’t too expensive (comparatively) so we could probably find the money to try it. Wow I can’t believe I am thinking about this.

I guess I’m naive. I childishly though that infertility wouldn’t happen to me. I thought a miscarriage would never happen to me. So far, there is no reason for my infertility, and that is almost as bad as knowing the reason! I guess since there isn’t anything wrong with me (that we know of) I assumed it wouldn’t really take too much help or time for us to conceive. Once I had to face facts that we needed help, I really did think that a round or two of Clomid would do the trick. Now I’m finally starting to think that we may have to go further than I ever could have realized.

But you know what? I’m ready. I want another child so much. I’ll do everything I can to make that happen.

I admit, I also want to get pregnant before February. My EDD with my miscarriage was February 26th. It will be a very sad day, but being pregnant again would certainly make it easier.

I’m actually a little bit more laid back about things this month. I guess it’s a little bit because I’ve been in the same situation the last 3 months and so I’m used to the routine. Also, since we’ll be trying a different treatment next month, I’ll have new hope for future cycles. I am sure that once I’ve met with my doctor I will feel better and more confident about the next step. I know I’ll still be hoping we won’t need the next step, but having a new option, a new plan does help.

I should be ovulating on Sunday, CD 15. Monday I’ll meet with my doctor and Wednesday I’ll start on progesterone supplements again. If I do ovulate on Sunday, my AF will be due on 11/27. I’m thinking about indulging in a little holiday testing. If I did get a bfp it would be very hard not to share it with all the family I will be seeing that day though! LOL We’ll see what happens…