Doubt
I’m an emotional wreck today! My son is being really fussy, my babysitter (my mom) is super frustrated with him, work is annoying the crap out of me, and finally I have very little hope left for this cycle.
Saturday (6 DPO) I broke 3 of my nails. they are brittle and weak, but they usually start breaking around the time that AF is due. It’s a little early, since I’m not due for her until Sunday or Monday, but it was all it took for doubt to start creeping in.
Then this morning, I went in for my progesterone draw. I barely even thought about it. In fact, I think I said to the tech that it should be nice and high, since I’m taking 200 mg of prometrium twice a day. Last month on that dose my level was over 20 (they don’t quantify if the level is over 20).
So when my nurse called and said my level was 12.5 I was shocked and disappointed! She said they aren’t worried about it, it’s high enough, levels can vary from month to month and good or bad levels aren’t an indicator of success or failure anyway…but I can’t help but be frustrated. Here again, I’m doing all of this for what seems like nothing! My body doesn’t do what it’s supposed to do!
Ugh. I just want to curl up an cry.
This entry was posted on Monday, November 21st, 2011 at 2:35 pm and is filed under Hoping to be Blessed Twice.
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About the Author: MeAsAMommy
I'm a 29 year old mother from Indiana. I've been married since 2004 and in 2009, my husband and I had our son. We hope to be blessed with another child soon!
Thank you Krystal…I’m feeling a little better today! Baby dust to you too!
Just keep your head up and try to think of other things :) Good luck
**Baby Dust***